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Headshot / expression video

 

I thought I would do a little headshot/ expression video, just to show movement and reality really. Its often easier to see a persons modelling from video than images. Of course I wasn’t modelling to any particular brief or purpose here, just throwing out a few random headshot poses. But gives an overall idea :)

 

Videoed and edited by Stephen Perry  – www.stephenperry.com

 

Bye Bye Boobs *waves* :D

The life and times of my boobs “Sheila & Mary” ……. ;)

A long time ago in a wee village in the countryside lived a girl with a miniscule chest! Her mum had big boobs, her aunties and cousins did, every bloody female in the family did ……even her brother had bigger boobs ! :O  This made her feel bosom deprived! :/

One day after finding one of her chicken fillets in the corridor at work … hadn’t noticed it had fallen out and became a major trip hazard…. she decided for health & safety reasons that she ought to have them sown in so they weren’t so dangerous! (Always thinking of others!)  ;) (y)

So 11 years and 4 boob jobs later…… Sheila and Mary have seen (not so flat) flat mates come and go! They have decided enough is enough and they would rather be on their own! The flat mates have been nothing but a problem…..changing shape, moving constantly , one south, one north, gosshhhh! Why cant they just settle in their homes and be happy!!! Awkward buggers!

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So basically due to my hyperactive implants that wont sit still my surgeon has decided they are out of control and all he can do is remove them!

So I will go from a C cup (with the flat mates) to possibly an A cup (empty flat!) :O   (gosh that’s an attractive description if ever I heard one…!) :v

After 4 months of empty flat I will have the option to have them put back in…..or not! This decision i’ve not made as yet!  But I don’t think I can bothered with anymore hassle, as much I do love hospital breakfast (they even have a wine list!!)

Back in the day….I never wanted huge boobs, just a bit of something to feel more in proportion.  I’ve never liked the look of fake boobs, as actual boobs oddly, I just wanted the shape I guess!  (oh the joys of reflection!)

So 10th November 2014 I will be having them removed. I’ll be back & fit to work 3 weeks after. I will have little scars under my boobs, but I already have, so that will be no different.

But in all seriousness the relevant thing is I will have much smaller boobs and will look different.

So any bookings after this date….this is the boob status (y)   Of course anyone already booked has already been informed, but for any future bookings, just to make people aware :)

I will still model to the same levels and nothing will change that way.

I will further update on Sheila & Mary in the future to let you know whether or not I decide to let the flat mates back in, or whether they have seen their final day!

For now, Thanks a million and lots of love from Sheila & Mary xxxx <3

 

Safari in South Africa

Little video of a “Happy Safari” shoot I did in South Africa with Andrew Appleton Photographer…..whilst we were over working at the Photo Film Expo in Johannesburg.

Looking forward to going back this year….for more fun, games and workshops! ;) :D

Photography & video editng: Andrew Appleton

Video camera: Boudoir Fusion, South Africa

Black Diamond Editorial …..

Just wanted to share one of my favourite shoots of the year………… (as it’s New Years Eve and all……)

An Editorial I shot with Wayne Lawes Photographer….Mr. Multi-Talented…also on styling! ;) and his lovely wife Liz Lawes also a photographer. We were assisted by another model Nic Button (lovely lady on a mission to keep me warm ….I love you for that!) ;)

Hair & Makeup by the super creative:  Tara Steel MUA

We shot this on location near Bournemouth & Newforest in Dorset …  and called it “Black Diamonds” :)

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Behind the Scenes…………

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<3 happy days…… :)

 

 

 

The compliment thing….

It is so very odd, that by being a model, people assume that you must think that you are beautiful! As of course modelling is presumably all about looks & beauty…. So people who model are therefore beautiful and therefore know they are, or why else would they model! Sounds simple!?

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But to my mind that is so far from how it is……I got into modelling as I liked having my hair done! I loved having my head rubbed like a dog and loved all the funky colours I had done, that i’d never have dared to otherwise.

As a teenager & growing up I had absolutely no confidence …. so I never for one second considered myself worthy of a second glimpse, let alone attractive, and certainly of no relevance to modelling! (Without meaning to sound negative!) As my modelling continued and escalated over the years on and off…..(quite accidentally) I acquired a new found self confidence and an immense passion for it. But it was never about my looks, not then, not now, not ever. It was all about expression, creativity, doing that thing that sets your heart and brain on fire!

The point of me writing this was I actually wanted to explain why I struggle t0 accept compliments and may come across like I am being dismissive!

Often people make lovely comments on my images and I am very grateful yet so genuinely shy to accept these compliments! “Bullshit” I hear you say!  Outwardly and even inwardly I am a very confident person now, but compliment me and I will shake my head at you, change the subject, tell you to “shush” or “don’t be daft”. Not out of rudeness or that I am unappreciative , but because I genuinely don’t see it, or I guess I just don’t look at myself in that light. And I know I don’t have to agree , but by saying thank you I feel that that means that I am and I just find it embarrassing and vain!  It is crazy as I know and I sound like I need therapy! But it’s not even about self confidence, I just get shy and feel embarrassed when I have to reply to a compliment.  SO it is easier to pretend I never heard! :D

Of course I do say thank you because I am genuinely grateful…..but it feels a bit false when I say it as of course I just can not see these things often, and by saying thank you I feel that is me agreeing “Yes I agree I am bloody awesome, thank you “!  Cringe!

This makes me sound mad I’m fully aware…..! ;)  I do think I am a good model and I do a very good job. But I disassociate being a good model with being good looking, as I don’t think the two necessarily need to go hand in hand.

So I don’t mean this to sound like I am some super sensitive flappy shy model, because I’m genuinely not!  :p  But rather thank you for all your kindness and sorry if I ever sound ungrateful when you are being complimentary, but this is he brain process  (I know, cringe!!) :) <3

God I talk too much! Broken record comes to mind ;) x